Another year

I put myself on the outside looking in today. I saw what i didn't see before. I watched as i was showered with love from all the people around me.. spoiling me with unnecessary things. And i knew i was thankful, i had to be ya know? A lot of people don't have the amazing family and friends i have. I knew what i felt somewhere deep inside me, but that happiness just didn't show. That old me never came out. So yeah today i truly saw who i was, who i had become.. that girl who couldn't even enjoy that progression of life. who couldn't even put on a real smile. who deliberately inflicted a sense of abandonment towards herself. who after no consideration, broke in two. i don't want to be that. i'm done being that. Happy birthday.