You don't mean it.

I guess sometimes i stop and think about what could have been. If maybe that decision had not been made, where would my life be at this moment? If maybe i took a right turn.. instead of left. If maybe i hadn't of crossed paths with the people i did. And i wonder from time to time.. what if you didn't change? what if i didn't change? where would we have been.. would we have been as happy as when it first started that summer? And i know now that we have gone down two separate paths. i am completely okay with that, and i can actually say that and mean it. but i guess sometimes i stop and think.. i stop and think about what could have been.

I miss you without a doubt. I miss you and her together. and the happiness you brought each other. But in my eyes, if it's meant to be.. it's meant to be. I just hope you know that you will be okay, if not sooner than later. Don't change yourself because you're hurt. remember that, trust me. I love you.

I know you're okay, you always are. I know you may feel like i'm taking sides, but i hope you know that i'm not. I understand why you did this, and i respect it. because i know you did it out of the well-being of others. this was probably one of the hardest decisions for you to make. just please every once in a while take some time to worry about yourself. you're the most important person in my life and i can't even put in words how much you mean to me.

It's all about timing. Maybe this was the wrong time. I wish i could give you a steady thing to go by, but i can't. i'm all over the place. that's just me right now, me pushing people away.

I hate that i can't face up to what's happening to you. I can barely talk about it. When i do, it's just bitterness. I'm so sorry, you got dealt these cards in life. you don't deserve any of it. i don't want to see you go. please don't.