Surrender.

People aren't always what they seem to be. I guess the dependability wasn't there. These past few months have changed me greatly. For good and bad. I don't expect people to come running back to me cause i know they won't. Once it's lost, it's lost forever.. regardless of what i want or somewhat need. The funny thing is i'm sincerely, completely sorry i couldn't be that person for you. For how you used to be. But maybe just maybe this other girl can fill that empty space, can make you feel how i never did. I'm not gonna lie, i'm filled with so much anger that i'm ready to burst at any second. But i know i won't. Yes i feel betrayed that so soon after you can honestly even think about being or talking to someone else. But what can i do right? Your here and i'm lost in this other world. So good for you, for finding your way and being able to move on. All i ever i wanted for you was something better, so YOU could be better. And so i realize now your better off without me. You seem so much happier without me. It's hard to bear, but okay.. i'll give you that. This is what you needed, i suppose. To be away from me. Well you got what you wanted. I'm out of your life for good. I mean it. I'll let you be. Using all my strength to push away all the love i ever had for you. Your not who i once knew. I understand that now. I think to truly let you go i had to relive my past. I did that. It's all done now.