Unsettled.

I want to be someone in life. I want to go somewhere. To feel things that are thought to be unimaginable . I want to know the impossible. I want to be contemptuous. I need to be. I urge to find life. Real truth. Move past pain and this ambiguous cloud that seems to settle over my head wherever i go. I need to understand. To stop letting my mind be infiltrated with these senseless, ineffectual thoughts. I am my own. I will not be defined through what i do, but instead by who i am. I have to be realistic, more vigorous than i put myself to be. WE are more capable than we know.