Waves of Loss

Lost through the rays of sunlight. Composed, aligned.. looking straight through the ocean. Ghosts encompass my whole being. no longer will my mind correlate with my body. I see the waves.. i feel them surrounding my soul. becoming a part of every aspect of my life. but i don't consciously realize that these waves are drowning me.. pulling me into their vicious circle that tumbles me around and around until my head is spinning. Spinning so much, that i grow accustomed to it. this has become normal. this IS my new reality. i no longer become lost with the sun.. i only crave this immoral self-being. i need this corrupted ocean to breathe..