Life that's left behind

Expectation. It ruins things. Relationships. Friendships. We as people expect what we want to see. We expect too much, which ultimately only leaves us with disappointment. But isn't that what life is about.. our relationships with other people and the emotions that come about because of them? It's like looking in a mirror... you see your reflection looking back at you but you don't really see it. You just see what you want. Or when someone is pouring their heart out to you, but you somehow find a way to block them out. My exact point again.. we only hear what we want to hear because sometimes that's easier. Sometimes it's easier to collide paths with someone because that's better than being alone. And sometimes it's simpler to runaway from what your mind and body and soul are feeling because you'd rather do that than face the truth. The truth is scary. Admitting to weakness seems intimidating. I know that feeling. It's like an 1000 foot building falling lower and lower with you standing under it. And you can't get away because it keeps pulling you back into it's shadow. All you feel while your there is this darkness that never gets light again. This beyond imaginable sorrow that is penetrating into your very being. Sometimes life isn't only based on living or dying.. it's about the struggle between reality and the inconceivable.