Again

I'm being followed. Observed. But why can't you just let me be? Why can't you just let me breathe? I feel like i'm suffocated by death. I'm being transposed into someone i never knew. i'm watching as things are shifting from left to right and i'm not understanding them. So i sit. I sit and notice. and maybe even sometimes i cry. but i dont feel. i don't feel love or hate or patience or kindness. i'm numb. im absolutely completely fucking numb. and i dont really know if time will heal me anymore. i don't really know if this is permanent. so im up here in the clouds while the rest of you are on the cold hard cement.