to you and you and you.

I figured out today that i really need to take a step back. I need to take a step back and evaluate the person i'm becoming. i never used to be this way. i never needed consolation or encouragement to do better, i just did it. but now i find myself growing weaker and weaker as the days pass. i know i cant succeed if i dont come to terms with some of the things that have literally been killing me. and i want to do better. i want to be greater and stronger because of this. i need to somehow look at this as a benefit... look at it as a turning point in my life. this experience has showed me some truth though. some facts i never knew. it really has showed me who i can trust and look to in times when i need it. it has showed me that people will walk all over you for their own satisfaction. ive finally come to know that you can only trust yourself... no one else. everyone else in your life will either leave you or fuck you over. and that is really my whole point here. don't put your hope in others they will only let you down.