Future.

I don't know what i feel anymore. I spent this weekend getting fucked up, as much as i could. Just so i wouldn't have to think about what's been on my mind. just so maybe for at least a few hours i could be in a daze not giving a shit about anyone or anything. It worked, for a little while, but those same thoughts came back.. those same goddamn worries. Lately i've been snapping at everyone, getting aggravated at things that don't even matter. Mabye i'm trying to put my emotions towards them instead of at what's actually happening. I can't believe this is happening.. This one thing makes me weak. This one thing scares me the most. And all i'm wondering is, why?