I feel like such a bitch these days, maybe i am. I fuck people over. That's who i've become. It's sad i didn't want to be that person. but because of the experience i've had to deal with i cannot help but let my bitter mind frame overtake my actions. My emotions no longer matter to me. hah i sit here and write that, and what do i feel? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. These things just don't phase me anymore. i won't let them. I think it's kinda funny how everyone thinks i'm still the old marianne. Well i laugh at you people who think that. because no longer am i that weak. no longer am i that dependent on others around me. no longer do i trust any person who steps into my life. and no longer will i let people walk all over me. if you don't want me apart of your life then i will say my goodbyes and be on my way. i don't have enough energy and time for all that drama. it's too much effort. i guess you could say i'm being pretty selfish. honestly that's all my mind will let me be. and if anyone wants to overstep and tell me i'm wrong for doing all that i do, go for it. i guarantee you won't get through to me. it seems no one can these days, with the exception of me. so there you go, i know i may sound like a depressed, pathetic person. but think what you want, i don't give a damn. haha kbye