The closing.

I give up. I give up on every living human being. And i'm trying really hard not to give up on myself. I don't understand how people can be so ignorant and inhumane. Why can't things be simple? I want to be at peace. I want life to be easy. But really is there any goodness anymore? Is anyone true? I'm guessing not because i have been proved wrong in every single way. I've finally come to the realization that no one can be trusted, but ourselves. People say things that you believe, and then their actions contradict it in every way possible. I don't really consider myself a bad person, i know i'm not perfect but i'm not cruel. During these last 6 months, though, a lot of fallacious things have happened to me. A lot of things i don't think i deserved, Things i don't want anyone to have to go through. But they happened. Lies were revealed. True colors came out. I can truly depict everyone i thought i knew. I was wrong. I was greatly mistaken to think that people can change. I was living a lie, and i feel like i just finally woke up. I can only depend on me. I have grasped the fact that i am alone and that is the truth. And i think it's the first time i've ever said this, but i'm okay with it. Just okay, but i'll survive. I don't need anyone because then i'll get hurt. And i will not open myself up for that. In no way will i ever let myself be as vulnerable as i was just a few months ago. Maybe the situations i've had to deal with have made me bitter, but i think that's better than being naive. This is just the end of the beginning. Something that i've needed for a while.