I'm worried about you to the highest extent. I know things are going to get worse before they get better. But i still hope you don't put yourself down because of it. Don't lose who you are through the choices you make. Your better than that. Your better than this. I wish you could see that. Open your eyes and mind past all of the problems you've dealt with. You can be a better person. You have so many people that love you. Think of how you were with me and realize you can be someone great. Because i truly thought you were great. and i thought you could get anywhere. I still do. Your integrity and strength was and is stronger than mine ever will be. Wake up and see that things aren't gonna get better for you. Your gonna have to be the one to fix it all. I know i'm probably the last person you want to talk to, but just for the record- after everything- i'm here. Always will be. If you need anything, i'm right up the hill.