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I do know how to take care of myself. Always have. And i know you know i am stronger than this. I usually get over things pretty fast. And this i'm really trying. Like REALLY trying to let you go. Let everything go. And yes i've tried to look everything straight in the eyes and move past it, but it's barely been a week. And its hard. It is so fucking hard to be alone and not have you. You meant so much to me. I've lost two people i love, and i'm gonna lose a third. I suppose i should just get used to this. But i can't let anyone in again. I won't. This is exactly why i was so afraid of commitment. I was afraid of this pain & this emptiness. Because once i let go, i will just have this big huge empty space i can't fill up. A space i won't let myself fill up. And i want to be your friend, i do. Start off slow ya know? I want us to be okay. And i think once we become friends again. I will have to come to the realization that, that's all we will be.. ever. I can't change your mind, i can't beg for you back, i can't sit here and wait forever. I need to be okay. I know i will never let what i feel for you go. It will always be with me. It's just a matter of accepting that we will never be together again.