Journal entries.

Paradox:
They say the only thing we have to fear is fear itself--it paralyzes us with irrationality.

September 3, 2008

What is life as we know it? I could say it's about being fake, pretending. Taking everything in and dancing in the rain. It could be loving someone.. having it fade or having a nagging sense of emptiness. Thinking that in life things could always be better. Or that happiness is always mixed with sadness, somehow. So what does it mean, life as we know it is just.. about being in exsitence? having a sense of belonging? feeling like your part of something.. anything even?

Maybe? But for me, life is.. this place were in. this place where we learn to love and hate. this situation where we can choose how to live, how to overcome, and how to trust. it's about taking what we have and learning to work with it, cause that's our only choice. taking things in and questioning the unknown, because there is ALWAYS going to be the unknown. handling what we think we can't and surprising ourselves at the most random of instances. accepting change and learning to let go. forgetting about the past, living in the present, and hoping for the future. never counting on anyone but yourself and expecting people to let you down. having hope in things and using your own experiences to some advantage. striving on to something better. accomplishing your dreams and goals. but most of all it's about never losing faith in yourself even at the hardest of times, knowing that things can and will get better.

October 24, 2008

We have this sense of longing for love and for stability. We search for the knowledge of what we don't know and then pretend as if we understand it all. With longing, there is: regret, forgiveness, patience, and surprise. It constantly changes and undoubtingly always will. We crave for places we've never been and aspire to know their meanings. Hoping that one day we will experience that eternal bliss. WE long for reptition because we fear what we can't understand. Nothing is gained from being jealous, envious, or perfect. We realize we can never give up longing and wishing in this life. No matter how hard we try.. It's almost impossible. There's always going to be those instances where we think all we do is wrong, maybe though there is some truth in that-- thinking that it may be something to forget and banish. Something to never look back on again...