225 days.

1. For awhile i thought i lost you. You were so distant from me. And you still have your rare occasions now, but it's better day by day. Slowly, slowly... i guess it just takes time.

2. I know that a split second or a day together isn't gonna fix things. That part of me that was missing, is ever so slightly starting to fill in. I need you. We've shared some of the best times of our lives with one another. Us three used to spend summer nights laughing until we couldn't anymore. I just miss that. But i realize we can get back to that, one day.

3. You've told me what you haven't told anyone. I respect you, and i would never criticize your choice. If you felt in that moment you had to, then let it be. Don't regret, you always learn. Be scared, but don't forget were just living. It happens and it's life.

4. Now i fully understand why you are the person you are to me. You just get me. And i know that sounds dumb. But really, just think about it. Your the only person that has that same idea about life. Yes maybe we have different dreams & goals. And sometimes it scares me that i'm losing you. But i know we go through shit and we just live life in a daze for a while. That's why i've always respected or tried to respect your need for time alone. In the end though, you always come back. In truth you make me feel better about myself than anyone ever could. You make me happier than anyone ever could. I don't think any one person could fully compare to you or fully compare to the understanding we have of one another.

5. Sometimes i wonder how long this could go for. Until someone hits STOP. Or hell until YOU hit stop.

6. I know you've had it pretty hard these days. And i seriously worry about you sometimes. But i've realized that you've got it covered. You'll make it out. I just wish i could do something to help, cause you've always been the one to bring me up. But don't worry that time to get away is coming up sooner than you know.

7. A lot of the times when you play in the grass and dig holes in the yard i get very angry with you. And sometimes i hit you but i always end up giving you treatsies. Like your broder says your just in that annoying stage. hahahah.