A lot has been running through my head. I know we can get better.. i know i can get better. This is the one time i need to go back and become that person again. that independent, carefree girl. i hate that i've been so uptight and overbearing.. because that's not me, it's never been. As the months wore on i just kept getting worse and worse. Becoming farther off from myself day by day. i saw it happening, i felt it happening. but i let this new person overtake me because i felt that was for the best. it made me unhappy though and i was conscious of that. i caught on that i was pushing the closest people in my life away from me.. slowly but surely my life was going downhill. I don't think i need to change into myself again.. i just have to let all of this other shit go.. this reclusive, demanding attitude. i can do it... because if i don't my life will be a lie.
"I've lost truth, reality, and myself. And to overcome that will probably be one of the hardest things i do in my life."