5:56 P.M.

Why is it that people are afraid to express their emotions? Or show that at times they can be weak? I think emotional pain makes you stronger and it makes you feel. I mean REALLY FEEL, it opens your eyes to how harsh life can be. It's reality. And it shows the truth, something that's not around very much. I say all of this about how pain makes you stronger. The truth though.. my truth.. is i HATE being weak. I hate showing weakness and i avoid every possible time that i could be vulnerable. I won't let anyone affect me like that.. i guess you could say it's my pride. I honestly don't remember the last time i cried or let out my feelings. some would say that's good and some say it's bad. but is there really a right opinion. to me.. no. it has it's goods and it's bads. i've always said there is a sacredness in tears, but i can't follow through on that.. i can't let myself be weak. maybe i'm a changed person. the person i was then is different from the person i am now. who knows? but can people really change? i don't think so.. yeah okay maybe alter who you were but deep down that same person is still always going to be there. that person is never going to leave you. and no matter how hard you try to say it's not.. it is. I know i think about unnecessary things, but all of this is just buzzing around in my head and i have to let it out somewhere. Do you ever think though, the unnecessary is what we need and not something to be pushed aside? That's what keeps us questioning about the unknown. it makes us wonder. it brings uncertainty, i think we need a little bit of that too. All of this is the foundation of our lives. It is the pieces of our soul and the parts that keep us different.