Questions.

I don't know what's up with me lately? But seriously what can i do anymore. I've tried and tried and failed and failed. Yes, i know you learn from your mistakes. But truthfully, do we? Do we ever not run back to those certain people? Do we ever not result back to those old habits? Do we ever truly learn and never make those same mistakes again? Does it even make us stronger?
Why is it that we always do exactly what were told not to? It's that sense of freedom and adventure. Just the fact of knowing your not supposed to do it. It's evident that it's not for the best, and yet WE STILL DO IT.
Constantly, i'm running back to, thinking of, and living in the past. Of course everyone says just let it all go, let it subside, forget about it. But it's not that easy. What if you've come to the point where you don't want to let it go? You don't want to forget? You want it to be back to the same way it used to? What do you do then? Where do you go from there? Do you forget everything you once seemed to know so well or do you keep thinking and longing for the same constant thing that you know will never happen?
How do you forget those memories? They're there with you forever. They're not going to go away in a split second. So yeah, maybe it'll take some time. But how much? How much time is it going to take to make everything fade? For everything to go away? Too much time for me to handle.
What if you can't take it anymore? What if one day you want all of it gone and then the next you want all of it back?
Have you ever had someone who just knew how to get to you? Knew how to take away every shred of dignity you have? Knew how to make you feel like complete and utter shit? Someone who could make you feel so good and then so horrible the next second?
What if you have someone who knows you so well? Maybe even better than you know yourself? How do you let that someone go? How can that person be once so close and important in your life? And then gone out of it?

These question's are the basis of my life..