blahhh.

I'm tired as hell, i need to promise myself no more 4 in the morning phone calls. No sadies for me, i have my reasons. kinda bummed. I miss crys already and she's only been gone for two days. Melanie's little brother is so cute, i wish i could kidnap him haha. Mel will kill me once she reads that i actually said her brother's cute. I seriously have NOTHING to do... i think i'll read, cause im reading this reallyyy good book, well actually im reading three books at the same time but same thing. Dude i just love reading, i dont know it's like if i'm having a bad day or something i just pick up a book and everything that i was stressing about before is gone. Reading just gets me out of reality. It's kinda weird, like whenever i'm reading a book and i stop for an hour or so, i feel like my life's on pause. I miss Heather, she's not around much anymore.


I feel so confused about life. And the one and only thing i can count on is.. change.